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Wednesday, July 01, 2009
 the climb went back to tp for lunch with nis and to study physics.....well the studying part didn't work out well, i only manage to go thru 1 section of the 1st chapter.....damn! A'levels physics is hard! anyway i saw my course manager chilling out with his colleagues after lunch, of course i went to say hi and talk to him for awhile, damn i thought he's supposed to be a busy man. so nevermind bout that, maybe he's just taking another short extra break after lunch. well after like less than 30mins i saw him yet again~ this time at another table with another group of colleagues.....DAMN! i was very sure he went back his office with the previous group and here he is~ doesn't he has work to do? hahaha yet i kept seeing him slacking and chilling out with colleagues over a cup of teh. friggin envious. well i have decided, im gonna study hard.....im going to continue my studies till my brain says stop......im maybe going to some 3rd world countries and live life as a total pauper and of course helping the poor(gain some credits enough for heaven), im going to work in a research lab for a few years, im going to be a lecturer, im going to fuck lazy students and teach the willing ones, im going to CLIMB CLIMB AND CLIMB up to the very top like my course manager. and then i will slack with my colleagues,slack with different batch of colleagues. once in a while i will fuck the people from the top, displaying some authority. maybe each lectuerer has a limit of up to 1hr for slacking each day........well im going to be a 24/7 slack lecturer that can allow me to join up to 8 different slacking cliques and i'll slack my work thru right at the very top. that's what i'll do. i will do research as i slack(so that i won't get fired), i would write drafts for my books(so that i will have more income). but well the main thing's to slack and i look forward to slack. i'll be the lecturer who smokes and join my students for a smoke break in the midst of a lecture. i would fuck them up and ask them to go back to their lecturers if they ask me for a second stick. i'll slack thru my career with a rokok on one hand...... how wonderful can life be? whack / 10:56 AM Sunday, June 21, 2009
as she sat that alone in the bus heading home, she was staring mindlessly thinking of something. her face speaks of different stories each clearly drawn out by the lines on her face. she should be around 70plus. however behind that wrinkly and gloomy face, there's a glimpse to her innocence and pretty face way back. afterall she had been a teen before, the teen who got so excited about her first date, the teen who flushed out red when she received flowers from her date, the teen who enjoys herself when out shopping with her girlfriends. she was not in a rush now though. she could wait even if the journey's long, she had experience far too much to be in a rush. what could be in her mind right now? where did she came from? i don't know. but im sure her mind wasn't on such trivial matters bout where and what she did today. maybe she's thinking of her already grown up kids, worried/assured at the kind of lives they are leading. her kids have all grown up, they might even have families of their own, but deep inside her heart, she will always see them as her lovely children who would run into her arms whenever the thunder could be heard, who shared their adventure story at school with her, who hurried her whenever she's preparing the dinner or maybe talk back to her whenever she's nagging at them. regardless of the events, they will always be an inseperable part of her physically, mentally and spiritually. her wrinkles are the best proof of a doting mother. her limbs are the best proof of a hardworking mother. there's nothing fanciful in her dressing. common clothes and a plastic bag filled with her barang barang. nothing valuable except for one thing on the fourth finger of her right hand. an inexpensive looking gold ring. she might have aged, but the substance and value of the ring had withstand the test of time. the ring is the main reason for me to blog. a normal old ring who might not even be an attractive steal for a thief, yet to her, the ring is her life, the reason and cause to who she is now, the path of her life after her young marriage. where is her husband now? i don't know. but i do know her husband is someone great and caring enough for her to continue wearing it despite being so old already. i am sure she can still elaborate clearly about the day which change her life. the day where her sweetheart bought a ring, talked to her dad and finally knelt infront of her,' will you marry me?' he asked. from the day she nodded her head with joyness and excitement to present day, the ring has never left her finger. i can't help but to think about it. she must have love her husband deeply. they might have spent sweet moments, happiness, anger, sorrow and even troubles together. he could have gotten fired once, he could have scolded her once, but they have endured it thru. at the end of the day, he is still someone she love with her whole life. she gave him her youth, her love and her heart just to be with the man she often dreamt about in the night when they were dating. even till now.....she still remembers the day they took their oath together as she continues to live by what she vowed with him. the great thing about love is that it transcends through time regardless of the duration without the meaning changed. why must there be so many complications and variables be added into the simplest and sweetest eqaution of love now?
whack / 9:41 AM Wednesday, June 10, 2009
whack / 8:21 AM Tuesday, June 02, 2009
after some time, when all is forgiven and the wounds are healed.................i still think of you whack / 8:46 AM Tuesday, May 26, 2009
GRADUATION 2009! FINALLY, a moment like this.....some people search a lifetime for a moment like this, some people search forever for that 1 special kiss and oh yeah i can't believe it's happening to me, well some people search a lifetime for a moment like this! HAHA maybe not that exaggerating, not as in A MOMENT LIKE THIS, but still it's something worth cherishing forever!=) 4 years for me, 3 years for them, but still in the end we have graduated! i really enjoyed my 3 years of BMIE life with them, seriously i have never thought that poly life is so fun. when im in sec school, people always said, poly people are just full of bullshit, they make use of you,they backstab you and all....well that's partially true, but they didn't tell me the kind of fun and the kind of real great friends you can find in poly! i think my phase in poly has and will certainly make a great impact in my life, i keep thinking that it had indeed change my life not just socially but academically. if i had not withdrawn from nyp, would i have such grades and friends? nah definitely not! i had indeed make the right choice in wasting 1 year from nyp to mechatronics and then to BMIE! fuck the extra 1k fees, this is definitely worth it. poly is filled all kinds of people. people i dread,people i despise but who gives a shit bout them? im only concerned bout the people i treasure. thank you all my friends!               finally, me & my cute Japanese teacher! whack / 9:44 AM Monday, May 25, 2009
we busted the bastards North Korea is believed to have at least a half-dozen atomic bombs. However, experts say North Korean scientists have not yet mastered the miniaturization technology for mounting a nuclear device onto a long-range missile. Extracted from 'NKorea says it conducted 2nd nuclear test' HAHAHAHA, this is indeed pathetic, learned how to own atomic bombs yet didn't learn how to use it? no wonder they need to test it so many times?HAHAHA i mean who in the world will create something and not thing bout backups or application of that particular stuff?how smart is kim jong il? well but im not abit surprised actually......it' because of fools like that, who are causing problems to the peacekeeping of the world. bastards.(not as in the illegitimate child meaning) they spoilt everything....disrupt the peace, hurting others, but they exist everywhere. global scale, classroom scale and even workplace scale. how do we beat those bastards?how can we teach them a lesson?we need to busted them by becoming bastards. good guys just can't do it sometimes. haiz sad but true. only the ruthless survive. the reason US might be hesitant in counter-acting NK threats is because US is not a bastard. everyone in the world knows that US has got weapons few many times more powerful and advanced than NK's however US is worry bout the consequences and would not use such weapons unnecessarily, they don't want innocents to be killed just like that,well NK just don't fucking give a damn. that's the difference between a bastard and a non-bastard. the recent news bout the 2 US journalists being taken as hostages and charged with a 12 year prision terms after brng wrongfully charged with trespassing into NK' boundaries is BULLSHIT as well.NK just wants to use them as hostages to stop US from interferring their weirdo mad scientist nuclear testing.....WTF, what difference has NK has compared to terrorist? the world needs a bastard group ruthless enough to deal with bastards. it's like to slay a demon,you got to be one yourself. a vigilante group is needed to be heartless enough to defeat the bastards and then having become bastards themselves take the whole blame and end their own life before their gulit turns into empitness and greed. sad but true. FUCK THE NK GOVERNMENT!!!!!!!
whack / 12:38 AM Saturday, May 09, 2009
religion - a set of beliefs concerning the cause, nature, and purpose of the universe, esp. when considered as the creation of a superhuman agency or agencies, usually involving devotional and ritual observances, and often containing a moral code governing the conduct of human affairs as you can see that's the real meaning of religion. and why is there a need for religions and since it's the truth about the universe which can only contain 1, why are there so many different forms of religions. for many years, religion has been the cause for numerous wars and bloodsheds, but why are there so much chaos over something that is supposing-ly good. well if there's only 1 truth to it, i would rather believe in science. the countless proofs and theories have always been there. long ago in greece, people tend to ask about the natural phenomenas like rain,etc but without any knowledge, they can only push it to something extraordinary. well there must be a group of gods in charge of different things, zeus must be the head of it and he's the cause of the lightning and so on. of course there are people living in not just greece, but in japan, china and so on. being human, they choose to believe in the extraordinary as well. thus, the birth of Shintoism and Taoism. until a group of thinkers came about, they began to explore and try to find out the truth behind it using logic and reasons, they are the fathers of science, still they choose to be different and well got banished, exiled or even killed. since there's only 1 truth, why not believe in that truth. if you don't, why are you still studying it or applying it to our daily life. well maybe god likes to play games. he locked everything in the forms of numbers and figures just to hide it from us. occasionally, he would reveal some of it to us, guiding us or warning us about the the mysterious yet great powers he has. but is there a purpose in doing so, if god really want all of us to enjoy eternal life in paradise, why play such games and cause conflicts among us. you can also say he's giving us 'freewill' in showing us something, giving us a choice but well it ain't really a choice isn't it? if we happened to doubt him after knowing more, we'll still rot in hell.....haha maybe there's this overpopulation issue going on in paradise. but why do people need religion. we have now found out that the rain is not something god gives us for us to farm, it rains because there's this water cycle going on. oh well most mysteries have been explained, why still religion. well that comes to the 2nd part of the definition. it contains a set of moral codes governing the conduct of human affairs. if one day,you realize hey there's no hell or heaven, we are all gonna die and rot back into the soil, would you still find it important to do the RIGHT things? would you care about how others feel, or would you be more concerned over your well being? we'll do crap! religions are here to restrict us, to prevent us from doing stupid things, in fact some used it to control their people. i think people choose to adopt religion to explain things but well hey it's getting the effect of having morally-upright people, why not? religion IS the fundamental now. however contradictorily, religion is the cause for many conflicts. honestly, i don't believe in god. but sometimes i do hope i was wrong, he'll show up and convince me of his existence, guiding me thru life. i want to believe that god is all good and nice, he don't want anyone to suffer, he won't let someone to keep falling in life, he would pick them up and make them stronger. he would have everything planned out for each one of us. he would make sure the good gets the reward and the bad gets the punishment. i want to believe in something like that. but show me! i am open up to you, but i need the facts and answers. most religion believe in the end of world. the great apocalypse that would eventually consume us all, and the non-believers would perish while the believers would attain eternal peace. but why apocalypse? to re-build the world? the world would continue to degenerate into chaos as humans are imperfect, by destroying it now and re-building it later, and then degenerate it again, that can only give birth to short phases of peace which afterwards, we would all turn astray and do bad and the cycle repeats. i mean there must be a better solution, hello you are god, you created us all. well it all comes back to this question again? is there really god out there? is he the cause of everything but then what's his cause? nothing can come from nothing, something must have come from something. like Einstein said, god doesn't play dice. there might be reasons afterall, but hey god sure likes playing guess. in the midst of finding answers to unify them all, we are still humans that have our own freewill, to choose to believe in whatever we want to believe in. that's the truth for each unique individual. maybe he will find me someday, and when the time comes, i'll know what to do. maybe i'll find him and get a reward from him? but well in the meantime, i can only follow what i think it's right, to pursue mindlessly for the truth. i may be on the wrong highway already but hey! even though i am on CTE, he'll eventually guide me out to exit into PIE right? i'll leave him to his plans for now. we can still be morally upright even if god doesn't exist, we can all live happily together with no hurt and pain, maybe when the time comes for us to be able to do all that, he will change his mind about apocalypse, we got to convince him. it's like convincing your parents you are mature and sensible now so that they won't have to control you so much isn't it? i am still an atheist looking for the truth. whack / 10:01 AM |
